i’m the kind of person that always wants to document every single moment in my life. i’ve had several diaries/journals before. and i’ve even used my high school log book as a timeline of my daily experiences where i can just quickly update with short entries (which my teacher read by the way… but no worries, she was also a close friend of mine, but still!!! it was quite embarrassing!). writing seems like a very healthy way for me to express myself.

before, i had no idea what blogging meant. i just knew it had something to do with the internet. haha! then i saw the movie “the perfect man” starring hilary duff and i was sooooo jealous of her blog. the movie “read it and weep” starring kay and danielle panabaker also made me want to have a blog of my own so bad! (not to mention, their gadgets in both movies rock!!! definitely on my wishlist! ) i also wanted to have a site like peyton sawyer from “one tree hill” where i can have podcasts and stuff.. but i figured it’s impossible to make one on my own when i can’t even figure out simple html and css coding! so, whatever!

when i was 16, i tried making my own blog with blogger.com. i was so into it at first. i updated everytime something interesting happens in my life. but when i started living in the dormitory, i haven’t had much time to update because internet is not easily accessed. i had to go to the internet cafe and spend money just so i can update my blog. so eventually, my blog was abandoned. (i can’t tell you the link to that blog because i already deleted it. and even if i haven’t deleted it, i wouldn’t tell you anyways. the contents are TOO personal and TOO open because it was originally meant to be an anonymous blog.)

the next blog i had was in my multiply account. but then i didn’t like it. i don’t know why, i just didn’t like the multiply blog. so i stopped updating it and deleted my previous entries.
i also considered making blogs in my friendster and myspace accounts but i didn’t want those people who personally know me to know EVERYTHING about me. in short, i feel shy in opening up so much about myself to those people who kinda knows who i am but aren’t really that close to me. so i never got to do it.

and now that i’m having this new blog, i really do hope that i can update it and make it my somewhat “dream blog” (but not really, because i know, i can never achieve that dream blog of mine). and a special shoutout to my very good friend mikyu who encouraged me and helped me put up this blog. without her, jeSsAstEr.net wouldn’t exist.